Friday, September 26, 2008

Mimosa update

... it's getting bigger

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Ode to the Hand-Knitter

EVERY knitter needs to read or listen to this book.... it is HILARIOUS and quite true to life... I am listening to the audio book, At Knit's End: Meditations for Women who Knit Too Much by Stephanie Pearl-McPhee, and this quote is my favorite!

We live in a moment of history where change is so speeded up that we begin to see the present only when it is already disappearing.
- R. D. Laing

We live in a world of machines, our world moves faster, bigger, and better with every moment. Machines replace humans and often do our jobs better. When you are knitting socks and sweaters and scarves, you aren't just knitting.... you are assigning a value to human effort, you are holding back time, you are preserving the simple unchanging act of handwork. I will remember that knitting is more meaningful than it seems.

Saturday, September 13, 2008


This morning, Alex rolled over to nurse, I popped him on and started to drift back to sleep.... normal morning routine.... then out of the clear blue sky he sits strait up, ripping off the boob (OUCH), and screaming bloody murder. HE WAS TERRIFIED!

It has been about 2 months since his last nightmare, and we thought that he had finally moved past them, but this morning was awful! My husband and I took turns trying to calm him down with every method at our disposal, I tried to nurse him, we tried walking with him, we tried to sing to him, we tried putting on Starfall to distract him, NOTHING worked. For 45 minutes, he cried like he was absolutely terrified.... then, we gave him some Tylenol....because he was all red and his temp was going up and he was going to make himself sick if he kept crying like that..... and started singing the abc's and twinkle twinkle little star (his favorite tune)... and about 5 minutes later he was calmed down and hiccuping from distress, teary eyes wide with fear, and glued to my chest (still wouldn't nurse) cuddling, with handfuls of my shirt clenched in his fist....

THIS CAN'T GO ON! My poor child has these terrifying nightmares and I feel so helpless! Is there counseling for 18month old kids? What can I do?

We have been with Alex his whole life, he has never been abused physically or mentally, never been left alone with a sitter, he doesn't go to preschool...... We practice Attachment Parenting and Gentle Discipline. We NEVER spank, hit, scream at him, or disrespect him, he has never had a time out. He has never witnessed violence, other than his birth by c-section and my seizures. We don't have television, we do watch movies and he loves Baby Einstein videos. He gets plenty of social interaction with other children, he loves visiting with family.

I really can't wrap my brain around why a child so young could have such terrifying nightmares.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Vaccinations hit another low point.....

CLICK HERE to read about GlaxoSmithKline's new low....

it isn't enough that American's poison their own, now we have outsourced our experimental vaccinations to other countries!

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Aikido and Fiddle

For the past few years, I have really focused on my marriage, education, and my and my husband's disabilities.... and then when I got pregnant, I focused on becoming healthy and bringing a child into this world.... and then when my son was born, I focused on being the best mommy I could be. Now, I need to take a little time and focus more on ME as a person, who I am and who I can be. I am NOT a disability, I am NOT just a wife, I am NOT just a mother, I am NOT just a scholar, I want to find out more about this person that I am.... So I have been trying to get a few hobbies and expand my horizons.

I have decided to take up fiddling and aikido.

I bought a violin in 2003 or so and tinkered around on it for a while before we moved out here to Washington in 2005 and my bow broke in the move.... I am going to buy a new bow and take fiddling lessons.

Aikido has been an interest of mine for some time. I have read about it and tried to start practicing it a while back, but I got pregnant and the dojo master said I should wait... plus I have to get a doc's statement saying that it is ok for me to practice aikido with Non-Epileptic Seizures...

Step by step, I will weed out the things that are not so important in my life, focus on making me a better person, improve my health and general wellness, and then I will be better equipped to take care of my son and my husband.